The Page Family

Family of 6

2012-01-24T11:42:00.000-08:00

Well, it's been almost 2 months since we've been home from ET. Isaiah Biruk is doing absolutely wonderful. He is transitioning well into this crazy household. We are all so in love with our little man. He truly lives up to the meaning of his name..."blessing." We will continue to pray for the adoptive families that are still in this process. It is soooooooo hard but sooooooo worth the wait.

IBP Homecoming

2011-12-15T11:19:00.001-08:00

I'm so thankful to be home and a family of 6! It's been over 10 days since we've been home. Everyone is transitioning well with the exception of a serious "tummy bug" that swept through part of the Page household. Luckily, Isaiah was spared and has only suffered from a double ear infection. (Poor little guy, that plane ride home must have been miserable). Everyday I am overwhelmed with humility and thankfulness that the Lord has united our family. Praise God from whom all blessings flow!

ET Update

2011-11-25T03:18:00.000-08:00

Opps...I just realized that I have been updating Facebook, but have neglected my blog. So here's the lowdown...I arrived in ET on Late Thursday night (Nov. 17th). Thankfully only one bag was lost and was recovered in less than 24 hrs. Isaiah was able to move into the guesthouse with me on Saturday. I was a bundle of nervous energy before he arrived. As soon as the car pulled up, I ran outside to greet him. Sweet boy was completely asleep. Nevertheless, after some good snuggle time he was ready to play. He is such a happy little guy; full of life and joy. He is constantly laughing, smiling, making boy noise, and is always on the go. And Oh can this boy eat! I am amazed at how well Isaiah is adjusting to me and a new environment. He has been sleeping great each night (12+ hours) and taking good naps during the day. I am learning so much about him like what makes him laugh, the foods he likes, that way he likes to held, cues to know when he is tired, etc. He has a cute way of telling me that he is hungry by the way he smacks his lips. He sucks his thumb when he's ready to fall asleep. And he has a super silly, squishing face he makes when he's REALLY happy. Too cute!
On Monday afternoon, I payed the Embassy a visit. I asked to speak with Esther so that we could discuss the hold up of our case and to see if there was anything else we could do it speed this process along. She was very nice and professional. She gave me the standard answer, "It just takes time. We need to complete the process by interviewing the police officer in Gonder. I will let you know when a decision is made. Yada yada yada." I wasn't discouraged, but I wasn't encouraged either. Prayer, prayer, and more prayer.

Little guy has been sick for a while. He's had a yucky nose, eyes, and cough. We've spent many hours walking the grounds attached to one another. I'm so thankful for my Eurgo, otherwise my back would be killing me. On Wednesday (Nov. 23rd) we ventured out to the care center to pay the doc a visit. It was so good to have a change of scenery. (MOWA has put some regulations in place in ET about taking your adoptive children in public. You really can only go to privately owned businesses/homes.) We saw the doc and got some meds for his eyes and congestion. After the doc, Belay and Genet met me at one of the houses and allowed me to take part of another family's coffee ceremony. There's nothing like fresh, roasted, Ethiopian coffee. I can't wait for Scott to join me for our coffee ceremony next week. Yep, Scott's joining me on Monday because we CLEARED EMBASSY!!!! ( I can't wait to see my hubby.) I got the email late Wednesday before Embassy closed for the rest of the week, for Thanksgiving. We are hoping to get an appointment on Tuesday or Wednesday to get IBP's visa. We'll head back to Arkansas on the following Saturday, Dec. 3rd. I'm so excited for our family of 6 to be reunited. I've missed my hubby and girls so much!

On Thanksgiving day, Genet and the BJoe ladies prepared a wonderful meal for the families staying at the guest house. Roasted chicken with veggies, mashed cheesey potatoes, mac-n-cheese, gravy, fresh salad with mint, and dessert. Funny story....I was in charge of mixing and baking the brownies. I mixed the batch and told the girls to turn on the oven to 350 degrees. Genet said, "Well, our oven only goes to 250 degrees." I assured her that it would eventually cook and it would take a little longer. I went on to change Isaiah's diaper. I made my way back to the kitchen and noticed the brownies were burning and completely hard. We were all puzzled, but didn't think much about it. At dinner we were talking about the brownie incident and realized that I was talking Fahrenheit and the oven here is Celsius. Needless to say we had "brownie brittle." Thankfully, the Robbin's had ordered 2 cakes to enjoy after our meal. This wasn't the first Thanksgiving dessert that I have ruined.

I've missed Scott and the girls more than I can truly express. It has emotionally and physically harder than I expected. I've never prayed so much and cried so much. However, I wouldn't change our decision for a minute. I know without a doubt this is where I need to be, with our son. I feel like I am making up for lost time. This time of bonding has been such a gift. I am so thankful that there is an ending in sight for the Page's. Please continue to pray for our family this last week. Pray that all involved will have the strength that only the Lord can give. And I can't help but ask for prayers of strength for the families that are yet to complete this process. My heart goes out to them. I know "He is faithful and He will do it.".

Weathering the Storm

2011-11-10T21:05:00.000-08:00

Well....... after weeks and weeks of prayer Scott and I made a crazy decision. I am getting on a plane next Wednesday, Nov. 16th, heading to ET. (We have good friends, the Robbin's, who are traveling to court, I'm jumping on the plane with them) You guessed it, I'm going to be with our little man, Isaiah Biruk until we clear Embassy. It's been 3 1/2 months since we've held him and it's been almost 2 months since he's been legally ours. Yep, we both agree- it's time for him to be with his family. We bought me a one way ticket, with no return! Scary thought, but I have an complete peace! I know God is at work and I am going to step back and let Him do His thing. One reason I am going over early is are to take custody of Isaiah. He can move into the guesthouse with me. So Exciting! We'll be able to start the bonding process and maybe even work through some of those "initial issues and struggles" before we venture home. Another reason......Embassy. I will be willing and available for whatever they need to help this process along. After all, they look to both me and Scott as his parents. Why shouldn't one of us be there with him, right? The hope is for Scott to join me sometime after Thanksgiving, when there is progress made and we can come home. It hurts to think I could potentially be away from my 3 girls and hubby for 1, 2 , 3 or 4 weeks. However, I know God will use the time to strength all of us and build our faith. That's exciting! We have 2 sets of wonderful grandparents that live locally and a community of friends that have risen to the occasion to help. I feel so blessed to live in community with these people....they all are like family! I know when Scott meets me in ET, the girls will be in good hands! Until then, please keep our family in your prayers. Pray for Scott and the girls that God's peace and joy will sustain them as the days get long. Pray for strength for me, I know I will eventually come off the "adrenaline rush" and get weary without my family, especially my sweet hubby. Please pray for Embassy's favor on our case. I know this last bit of the race may get tough, but it's all worth it. It is definitely all worth it!

"Showered with Love and Kindness"

2011-10-20T07:56:00.000-07:00

Sunday was such a special day! It started with the morning, at community worship, where we were asked to introduce our little man and share where we are in the adoption process. After sharing, there was a special time of prayer over our family as we finish the last grueling leg of this process. (Boy, do we need it!) The afternoon consisted of a beautiful shower celebrating Isaiah Biruk. Friends and family showered me with gift cards, notes of encouragement, endearing hugs, compassion, and gifts for Isaiah. My sweet friends hosted the most wonderful celebration in honor of our little man. The personal touches were heart warming. In the center of the delicious table of food were Africa shaped sugar cookies glazed with (my favorite) turquoise icing. Scattered among the house were enlarged black and white pictures of Isaiah. A variety of world globes were present as a reminder of his heritage. A cute plaid "A line" tent was pitched in the living room to hold the gifts (this was made by my dear, talented friend Corrie). Cuteness! Rosie has already informed me that when bubba gets home they will have a "sweep over in that cute tent." Did I mention how talented and creative my friends are? They had everyone sign and decorate a globe for his room! The globe was laced with verses, signatures, sweet words, love symbols, etc. So, so special! Thank you to my wonderful friends and family for showering our family with such love and kindness.

Sweet hostess friends

Delicious!

A prayerful reminder that he will be in our arms again

Love this!

Three generations (Rosie was napping) of girls:

"Gigi" Sallie Fleming, Mollie Fleming Page, Kenzie Page, and Meme Page

Happy Birthday IBP!

2011-10-10T12:34:00.001-07:00

Happy 1st birthday to our sweet, Isaiah! Oh how it kills me to not be with you today. I am comforted to know God is watching over you every minute of everyday. He has given you a group of wonderful ladies to take care of you, until you are in our arms. Your "special mothers" care for you deeply; I am so thankful for them. Your life, sweet boy, has given us a greater understanding of God's love. You see, we are all adopted sons and daughters of our Heavenly Father. My prayer is that others will see God's love through your story, as well. As you grow, I pray that you will understand that you are wonderfully created and that God has a beautiful plan for your life. I pray that you will know how deep, how high, and how wide is Christ's love and that you will walk intimately with God all the days of your life. Isaiah Biruk Page, we love you and can't wait to get you home. This will be the last birthday that we miss, I promise.

Happy Birthday, Rosie!

2011-09-29T08:43:00.000-07:00

Happy Birthday to the sweetest and sassiest 3 year old I know! Your ice blue eyes and rosy cheeks melt my heart. You have added a whole new dimension to accessorizing. Beads, bows, bags, and bling....you are the ultimate princess. I pray that you will understand the depth of God's love; the sacrifice that Jesus made for you, so that you could be HIS princess. I love to hear your prayers to "Gosus" (A special name created by you for your Creator. FYI...cross between God-Jesus) and I know HE loves to hear your prayers even more than I do! It warms my heart to see you reading and "highlighting" in your Bible, just like Daddy and Mommy. I pray that you will treasure those words in your heart and be bold enough to share them with others. I want you to know that you bring so much joy to my life; it is a privilege to be your Mommy. I love you with all my heart, Rosebud! Happy Day!

It's Officially Official!

2011-09-22T19:08:00.000-07:00

We got the call today (at 3:44 to be exact) that WE ARE HIS AND HE IS OURS! We are the very proud parents of Isaiah Biruk Page. Within minutes of meeting him, our hearts were in love and forever connected. We love you, IBP, and can't wait to bring you home!

On My Mind......

2011-08-29T12:10:00.001-07:00

AND OF COURSE..........

Raw and Reality

2011-08-20T22:16:00.000-07:00

It's been nearly 2 weeks since we've been home from ET. Since our return, we have been focusing most of our time on the girls. Swimming, school shopping, games, snuggles, a trip to the family farm, etc. Oh how we missed the girls while we were gone! School is now in full swing and the craziness of life begins once again. However, this Fall season my perspective has shifted. My life is forever changed. As I type the words, tears stream down my cheeks. (FYI....I cried everyday in ET and everyday since I have been home. Ask my hubby, I'm not a crier.) I wasn't crying for my son because I know he is in a good situation, in a care center where people are loving and caring for him. I know IBP will be with us one day real soon; we all can't wait for that day! You see I was crying for the multitude of people that I saw. The ones that appear to have no help or no hope. It's overwhelming, it's so overwhelming! Here is just some of what we encountered.....

make shift houses

sick, hungry children begging

women with their babies living on every street corner

disabled and elderly begging

the smell of exhaust

gentle, friendly people

people sleeping everywhere

public urination

orphanages with no grass, no carpet, no toys

orphanages that smell like vomit and urine

children asking me to be their mommy

a trash city that houses 75,000 people

a trash dump used as a food source for many

lepers

aids victims

women carrying heavy loads of Eucalyptus

hurt

desperation

children longing for affection

adults longing to be accepted

filth

deep loss

devastation

It's still very raw to me. The sights and the smells. What is raw to me, is reality to these people. Where as they may not know the difference, I do! I know the difference! Once again, I am firmly convinced that the Lord has blessed us so that we can be a blessing to others. We are not rich compared to the "Western World's" standards. However, I am feeling quite wealthy compared to the "Rest of the World's" standards. For the Page's, we are praying that our family will be used in ET for HIS glory. We want to be apart of something bigger than ourselves. While in Et, Scott and I were able to meet some amazing individuals who want to make a difference in the lives of their community. I love that they have a passion for the country of ET and their people. These are the people I want to come behind and support! They are changing one life at a time. They are true heros of this age!!!!

A quick update: We have seen God's hand in this adoption process every step of the way. IBP is and will be such a blessing to our family. (In fact, once in ET, we learned that our son's name actually means "Blessed.") We received word this week that our MOWA letter has been issued and is at court. However, we don't know what type of opinion MOWA issued on our behalf and the judge was unable to review our case before courts closed. So we wait......we were told that we may not hear anything until after rainy season. I'm still praying for a miracle. I would love to have our little man home before his first birthday in October. Regardless...it's about perspective. My perspective is forever changed.

Beyond Words

2011-08-10T05:49:00.000-07:00

There really aren't words that can correctly describe our time in ET with our little guy. I will attempt..... Our time with IBP was priceless. From the moment we saw him, he smiled, laughed, hugged, and smooched us. We were overwhelmed with such an affectionate welcoming from our little man. We were able to visit him three times that week. We treasured every minute of the visits. ( FYI...his cheeks are irresistible, I could not stop kissing them.) We filled our hours with play time (he loves little piggies), snuggles, feeding, and more snuggles. Our final visit, on Friday, was more than difficult. As Scott prayed over our son, the tears started flowing for both of us. As I looked up, his Special Mothers were completely touched by our emotion and love for this little guy. They did not comfort us with words but with a sincere embrace and a compassionate demeanor. I was reminded once again that the universal language that all understands is LOVE. Without a doubt, I know he is loved deeply by his Special Mothers. They kiss his hands and cheeks, calling him by a special nick name. It did my heart good to see this first hand. It gave me peace as I walked out of his room on Friday. I look forward to the day that we can hold that chubby hand again. I'm praying without ceasing that it will be much sooner than later.

And We're Off!

2011-07-28T22:46:00.000-07:00

In just a few hours, we will board a plane that will take us across the world to meet our son for the first time. It's finally hit...I'm a bundle of nervous energy. Physically I am totally exhausted but emotionally I am completely energized. Bags have been strategically packed, including humanitarian aid, weighing a little under 50 pounds each (that was a tricky). Documents have been notarized and passports are in place. The kids are taken care of (thanks to my sweet sister, grandparents and friends), the camera is charged. Yep, I think we're ready! I can't wait to snuggle him, kiss his sweet cheeks, and hold his chubby hands. Our court date is August 2nd. I'm really hoping that MOWA will issue a positive opinion on our case and many others before August 2nd. How great would that be? Regardless, the Lord continues to show me that He's got this. I am forever grateful.

Birthday Gift

2011-07-26T22:34:00.000-07:00

Have I ever mentioned what precious friends I have? Well, they are amazing! They each know how crazy my life has gotten since the news of the court date. (2 days until take off! Woohoo!) At 10:00 pm they came to my house, cake in hand, in hopes of celebrating my day in such a special way. You see while it's 10:00 pm in Arkansas, it's the start of a new day in ET. The morning of 7/27, which is my birthday. This is an important day in ET. Today our file will be submitted to MOWA. Today IBP's birth mom is scheduled to appear before a judge and relinquish her rights to her son. My heart hurts for her. When I begin to think of all the details that actually have to fall into place, I start to get anxious. My friends know this. So after cake and coffee, we got on our knees and prayed for what's to come. We prayed boldly, with faith and confidence that the Lord will hear our prayers and answer them accordingly. We know He is faithful and will do this! Thanks to my sweet friends for such a special gift. Love ya'll!

COURT DATE!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2011-07-18T16:57:00.001-07:00

God moved the mountain alright! We got word this afternoon that we have a court date for August 2nd. Yipee!!!!!! We have to be in ET by July 31st. Talk about craziness! Less than two weeks until we meet our son. My heart is so full, PRAISE THE LORD!

"Mountain Mover"

2011-07-17T22:19:00.000-07:00

" I tell you the truth, if you have faith and do not doubt, not only can you do what was done to the fig tree, but also you can say to this mountain , 'Go, throw yourself into the sea, and it will be done. If you believe, you will receive whatever you ask for in prayer."

Jesus Christ

*Matt 21:21-22

Keeping Busy......

2011-06-30T08:30:00.000-07:00

Post referral.....I'm trying to remain busy. I have updated all my CIS documents, applied for passports for the girls, printed and framed pictures of our little man, signed referral documents and checked them twice, and am now starting on IBP's (initials) room. This week I sent off a small care package by way of a fellow adoptive Mom, that will be traveling to ET next week. Rosie picked out the clothes for "Bubba." I had to convince her that blue was a better option than pink. I printed off pictures of the family and placed them in an soft infant photo book, in hopes that IBP will become familiar with our faces. Of course, we had to include something soft to snuggle. Buying "boy stuff" was really fun and a new experience for me. I look forward to the days he will be riding in the cart, shopping with me. Until then......I will continue to pray and keep busy.

"Hands and Feet"

2011-06-15T13:23:00.000-07:00

It's been three weeks since the referral. Three crazy busy weeks! School is now out for the summer and we are in full swing. The ending of the school year was bitter sweet. I tend to always get "reflective" at the end of each year. It's fun to see how each child has grown and matured within the year, thinking back over the highlights of the year.... the ups the downs. I always wonder how a school year can be gone in the blink of an eye. It truly makes me want to make the most of every opportunity. At the starting of the school year, we all were thinking that we would have our little man home for the summer. Boy, did we miss that one! We were told that when you are dealing with adoption, especially international, delays and set backs could occur. Well, they did! So here we are today continuing in the wait. Waiting for a court date. Preparing to hit the "rainy season", which could delay us 6 or more weeks. I relish in the fact that I have a sweet face that I can call by name. I find myself pouring over the pictures and studying all his features, getting to know him from afar. Praying like I have never prayed before; trusting God and releasing all expectations and control. To be honest, I'm not really sure how I would score if I were to be graded, but I am continuing in the process of trusting and releasing. Throughout the year, my prayers have changed. I am focusing less our timeline and more on God's. Sure, I pray like crazy to get him home sooner than later, but I have been more focused on HIS will and not my own. Has it been hard? You bet it has! It has been a daily reminder to release the control. One of my prayers has been that God would PLEASE bring people (ANYONE) that would be the "hands and feet" to hold him, love him, calm him, and tell him that he is precious. Something so sweet happened over the last two weeks. We have a family friend, Matt, who traveled to ET to do a documentary regarding orphan care. He was able to go and hang out with our little guy- to be the "hands and feet." He took lots of beautiful pics and even recorded a video. It was great to be able to ask him questions like: Does he have teeth yet? Is he happy? Does he sit up? You can only imagine my questions! ( As a side note, he couldn't say enough about the care that Gladney gives to the children. Absolute wonderful care! ) Our friend gave us a play by play of our little man..recalling every detail he could remember. It was such a sweet gift to us. Once again, I am amazed and reminded that God has got this!

"The Call"

2011-05-27T11:33:00.000-07:00

Wow, where it begin?????? It was Wednesday afternoon around 2:15, and my phone rang. It was my sweet friend who is adopting from ET using Gladney, as well. We began our "daily/weekly process" about our adoptions, new emails received from Gladney, changes in ET, etc. (Adoption therapy, if you will.) As our conversation came to an end, we had resolved (as we always do) God is in control, release the time line, trust, and pray. I hung up the phone; Rosie and I quickly headed out the door to pick up Kenzie from school. As I was driving, the reality was setting in that this long process could indeed get only longer. I must say I was a little discouraged, but had determined that I was not going to let the unknown consume me. My gears quickly shifted....Life. One daughter called to let me know she had arrived a friends house, one sent a text wondering why I was late for pick up, and the other (seated behind me) wanted all of my attention. I proceeded along as normal, picked up Kenz, and began to hear all about her day. My phone began ringing once again, but this time it was the coveted 817 area code. Immediately my heart started pounding, my hands began shaking and Kenzie and I started screaming with excitement. I composed myself and answered the phone. All I could say was ..."No Way." Kristin, our case worker, laughed and replied, "Yes, your referral is ready and HE IS ADORABLE!" I quickly called Scott to tell him the good news and make arrangements. I was really hoping for the "Norman Rockwell Referral." You know the one....the whole family gathered the computer, video camera rolling, music in the background, excitement, tears, a perfect moment. Well, this was not going to happen. Scott was in Joplin, Missouri helping out with the tornado relief. Furthermore, he had patchy cell phone reception, no computer, and was not going to be home until much later that evening. After talking with Kristin and Scott, we decided that the girls and I would preview the pictures and I would hear his story that afternoon. When Scott got home, we would process the information and ooh and awe over the pictures together. Everyone was happy with the plan. Once picking up Meme from her friends house, we called Kristin and settled in front of the computer. Waiting for the email to open felt like an eternity. Finally, it opened! Staring right at us was the most beautiful "little 7 month old boy" I have ever seen. No seriously... he is so cute! It was love at first sight! The girls and I squealed with excitement, as we looked through the pictures. He has big, brown, almond shaped eyes and the cutest smile. We were so encouraged because in most of the pictures he is grinning from ear to ear. You can just tell by the pictures that he has such a big personality. He and his daddy will be like two peas in a pod; those of you who know Scott will agree! Our little guy was perfect! Hours later, Scott pulled in the driveway. We couldn't wait to share these moments with him. Tears, excitement, joy all over again. Daddy would agree...true love and connection immediately. We now have a name and a beautiful face. It's completely surreal. I have heard others say that; now I know what they mean. Our sweet doctor came over to review his files and share in the excitement. I couldn't wait to email Kristin and tell her "We ACCEPT!" From 7:30-10:00 that evening family and friends entered our house and shared in the joy of seeing our son. The child we have all been praying for, dreaming about, and pursuing. The child we will continue (no matter how long it takes) to pray for, dream about, and pursue. Little man, you are well worth the wait!

Oh Happiness!!!! Referral!!!!

2011-05-25T20:05:00.000-07:00

We finally got "the call" today!!!!!!!! The most beautiful 7 month old little man I have ever seen! Love at first sight-truly!!! There really aren't words to describe it. There will be more details in the next day or so, I promise. Until then.....my cup overflows!!!!!!!!!!

2011-05-15T12:02:00.000-07:00

We just finished celebrating Scott's 40th b-day in the "Windy City."( Thanks to all of our friends and family that helped in planning and keeping this a surprise. Lying for the sake of surprise doesn't count, right?) We started our trip with an over night visit with my sis in St. Louis. Early the next morning, we jumped on the Amtrak that took us right into the heart of Chicago. We took up residence, for 4 days, in a most modern 40 story hotel where everything imaginable was at our fingertips. The yummiest restaurants and most trendy stores were in walking distance. ( I have never eaten so much and walked so much in my entire life. Loved it!) Each day brought something new an exciting...... Cubs vs Cards at Wrigley Field, the Art Institute, the Magnificent Mile, Garrett's popcorn, bike rides along Lakeshore Dr, Lincoln Park, crazy taxi rides, Navy Pier, Lake Michigan, riding the "L", Millineum Park, and so much more. It was just what the doctor ordered: energizing and refreshing! During our stay, we crossed into the 13 MONTH marker of waiting. Truly, I never thought we would be here with NO referral, but we are and there is absolutely nothing I can do about it! So... I reside to wait with joy and pray with anticipation of the future and what's to come. I don't want to miss out on the blessing of my amazing husband and beautiful children under my roof. Perspective....that's what I feel like the Lord has given me right now and I am thankful!

Death has NO Sting!

2011-04-24T17:39:00.000-07:00

I am so thankful to our Lord, who endured the cross for me (and you). Perfection who carried the weight of the world on His shoulders. Grace beyond measure. Love so deep and wide. Forgiveness removed as far as the east is from the west. Good news......

"But on the first day of the week, at early dawn, they went to the tomb, taking the spices they had prepared. And they found the stone rolled away from the tomb, but when they went in they did not find the body of the Lord Jesus. ...The Lord has risen indeed.."

Luke 24:1-2, 34

Thanks be to our Lord Jesus, Death has No sting!

Twelve

2011-04-12T10:08:00.001-07:00

Hoping for some good news real soon!!!! Ring, baby, ring!

Quote of the day....

2011-03-28T19:49:00.000-07:00

" Praise be to the Lord, for he heard my cry for mercy. The Lord is my strength and my shield; my heart trusts in him, and I am helped. My heart leaps for joy and I will give thanks to him in song. The Lord is the strength of his people."

Psalm 28:6-8a

Enough said.....

Eleven

2011-03-12T20:32:00.001-08:00

Eleven months of waiting...officially. Sadly, I feel that we are no where close to the end of our process. There are so many unknowns. This I know..."God is good, He is gracious, and He can move mountains. His ways are much higher than my ways. " So.... I will BE STILL and WAIT on the Lord.

Happy 13th B-day!

2011-03-03T12:09:00.000-08:00

Happy, happy birthday to our sweet MacKenzie! I really can't believe your are entering in the "teen" years. Your smile warms our hearts. Your grateful heart is a breath of fresh air. Your determination is inspiring! Daddy and I are so, so blessed to be called your parents. "Sweet girl, as you enter a new season of childhood, I pray that you would love Jesus more than you ever have. I pray that you will be able to feel His presence and grace in everyday situations- whether big or small. I pray for boldness in your words and the way you live your life. Remember God did not give you a spirit of timidity, but a spirit of power, of love and self-discipline. Always, always remember love- it never fails." Kenz, we are so proud of you. We love you more than you'll ever know- ever!

No. 10

2011-02-12T13:07:00.000-08:00

Pure White Fun!

2011-02-11T18:37:00.000-08:00

Fun Daddy!

Hold on!

Mommies like to have fun, too.

My "Love Lump."

Now you see me......

Now you don't!

Note to self......Rosie is not a fan of snow. Maybe next year?

Tired?

2011-01-28T11:31:00.000-08:00

When I get tired, weary, empty, or should I say....HAVE JUST HAD ENOUGH! I am so thankful that my gracious "Father" does not feel the same.

"Do you not know? Have you not heard? The Lord is the everlasting God, the Creator of the ends of the earth. He will not grow tired or weary, and his understanding no one can fathom. He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak. Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall; but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint."

Isaiah 40:28-31

CAN I GET AN AMEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

"MT. WASHMORE"

2011-01-22T13:51:00.000-08:00

1 Trip to St. Louis

2 Snow days

3 Sick peeps

4 Evening Commitments

5 Days Neglected

__________________

= "MT. WASHMORE"

Just looking for a little humor in the situation................Ughhhhhhh!

It's that time...again!

2011-01-10T19:39:00.000-08:00

Reeaally? I thought I had just finished all of the paperwork for the adoption? I can't believe it's already time to start the "process of updating." Physicals, clearances, fingerprints, homestudy, etc. Well, on the bright side....this will keep my hands busy and my mind off of the lack of referrals these days. The clock is ticking....... Wednesday marks NINE MONTHS of waiting. I just know we're getting closer with each passing day!

New Beginnings

2011-01-02T21:04:00.000-08:00

I love the start of a new year. It's a new beginning, a clean slate. I usually start with a "purge session" where I attempt to make order of my world. I look into each closet and drawer and evaluate the items at hand. As I begin to let go of the "stuff" that clutters and cramps my surroundings, a sense of clarity comes over me. Now, there are those closets that are not as easy to purge. You know the ones! For whatever reason, it's harder to release what's inside. But once I do release them, a burden is lifted. There is room to breathe; it's then can I begin to organize and prioritize the things that are of value. It was in my closet two days ago, that I was impressed with what God wants to accomplish with my heart. He wants to purge the things that are not of Him or from Him. You see, I am carrying unnecessary burdens . Burdens that are cluttering my life...burdens that I have the option to release. For whatever reason, I hold on to them. He wants me to release them....purge them. I have areas in my life full of insecurities, pride, control, you name it. Those things need to go, I have no need for them! Like my closets, this will be a continual process-keeping those unnecessary items out of my life. The temptation will always be there..... to fall into my old ways. I will need to dismiss those urges and cling to "the one" who knows me best. My prayer for this year is that He would continue the work He has started in my life- cleaning out those dark places. I want to grow closer to Jesus each day, with my heart attitude reflecting Him. I am so thankful that my God doesn't treat me as my sin deserves. His mercies are new each day! Cheers.... to a new beginning!

Bumps in the Road

2010-12-28T21:57:00.000-08:00

Those bumps in the road, circumstances that are out of my control, are a reminder........

"Find rest, O my soul, in God alone; my hope comes from him. He alone is my rock and my salvation; he is my fortress, I will not be shaken."

Psalm 62:5-6

Family Night Out

2010-12-24T12:53:00.000-08:00

An evening out with the fam....dinner at Mellow Mushroom, a trip to the Fayetteville square, hot chocolate, Christmas music, and driving the long route home to take in the holiday decor. Just magical!!!! FYI.....Rosie hated Santa but loved his reindeer. I would have captured the "moment with Santa" but was informed it would cost me $5.00 to use my own personal camera. Ummm, no thanks!

Holiday Flavors

2010-12-21T18:23:00.000-08:00

The Page girls love an excuse to bake and create some sweet treats!

Hague Training....Check!

2010-12-18T12:22:00.000-08:00

Last night, Scott and I finally completed our last 2 hours of on-line Hague Training. ( Our adoption agency requires 8 hours of inter-country adoption training and 2 hours of specific-country training. ) Every little bit we can do helps in keeping our minds active in this waiting period. The average wait time for a child in our age bracket is 8 to 9 months. However, referrals seem to be slowing down due to the new travel laws. I am hopeful....we could get the phone call any day now. During this season, I am praying continually for a right PERSPECTIVE. I truly want to focus on the Baby in the manger while praying for our baby in ethiopia. Until then, my cup overflows with gratitude. I am so very thankful for my sweet hubby, precious girls, and the life I have been given.

# OCHO

2010-12-12T12:52:00.000-08:00

On my mind..............

Double Digits!

2010-12-11T20:44:00.000-08:00

Happy 10th birthday to my sweet Mary Ellen, otherwise known as "Meme" or "Love Lump." I can't believe we have been entrusted to raise such a precious jewel. She truly lives up to the meaning of her name...."Light of Mercy." I learn what it means to "love large" by watching her each day. Meme, you are beautiful inside and out. We are so proud of the young girl you have become and love what God is doing in you life. We love you more than you know! Happy birthday, love lump. May your love and devotion for the Lord grow stronger with each year.

Sweet Faces

2010-11-30T11:32:00.000-08:00

Oh, how our girls are growing and maturing....... It is amazing to see how these sweet faces are changing with each year. Unbelievable!

3 Bags in 2 days

2010-11-27T18:55:00.000-08:00

There is a really cool organization in our area that has a heart for the homeless. A group of young girls decided that they wanted to make a difference in the lives of the less fortunate in our area. This conversation was motivated by an encounter with a homeless man and a chocolate chip cookie. One of the girls, Chloe, ran in to a gentleman and was moved with compassion for his current situation. She decided that the least she could do was buy him a cookie and acknowledge his presence with a gentle "hello." The man was completely taken with such kindness from this young girl. This encounter changed the course of Chloe's life, as well as some of her friends. These girls wanted to do more than walk by some in need. They desired to have a plan for the next time they ran across someone that needed a little extra help. Perspective and a heart for giving spurred on this organization called, "3 Bags in 2 Days." You guessed it, the name speaks for itself. They passed out the very first 3 bags ( care bags filled with basic necessities) in 2 days. It has been a little over a year since this all began and it is growing by leaps and bounds. It has been eye opening to all of us to understand even more of what is going on all around us. We decided it would be beneficial to get our kids at the Well Communities involved, as well. After all, it was a one beautiful example of how to love your neighbor. The kids were able to hear this story and assemble 40 care bags. These bags included the basic necessities such as : toiletries, socks, gloves, cereal bars, water, chap stick, wipes, etc. The children were shocked to learn that the average age of homelessness is only 9 years old! Unbelievable! To Chloe and her friends at 3 Bags.....thank you for letting us be apart of your ministry. You all are such a great example to our community!

Lucky # 7

2010-11-11T21:09:00.001-08:00

Tomorrow will mark our 7th month of waiting. Maybe we'll get lucky.....come on referral!

Rescue and Redemption

2010-11-07T12:16:00.000-08:00

Tonight we participated in "Orphan Sunday." For those of you who don't know, Orphan Sunday is a day the "church" has set aside to advocate for the orphans. It's the brutal awareness of what is the reality of over 160 million children both near and far. It is heart breaking, it is gutt wrenching in so many ways. This is what keeps me up at night! Circumstances this week have stirred my heart to pray more than ever. Let me share.....Scott and I started our week off with the 8-10 hours of Hague Training that is required before we travel to Ethiopia. This was a bold reminder of what these children have faced and often what it will take to heal their hearts. That brought me to my knees real quick! "God, you are the true healer. Please show me how to love and nurture my children as you would." As the week progressed, Scott began to prepare for his trip to Haiti, while wondering if his group was going to be able to travel due to the hurricane. Thankfully, the team was able to fly out as scheduled and landed safely in Haiti. This week they will be doing many things within the city and country side. Tomorrow they are heading to the orphanages to love and play with children. In fact, a friend of mine (Emily) will be meeting a Compassion Child that she and her family sponsor each month. How exciting! Engaging with a Compassion Ministry is one of many ways to help aid the Orphan Crisis. In fact, it literally keeps those kids from becoming orphans themselves. The team will also be setting up medical clinics and providing help and aid where needed. While visiting the tent cities, they hope to hand out whistles to women and children to use when in danger. You can't even imagine what goes on after dark. "Father, I know this completely breaks your heart. Please, please be the protector of these children." Last night, I was able to join a group of local families for dinner. These are families who have either adopted or are in the process of adoption. It was therapeutic to share in our commonalities. It was fun to share in the process, to dream of what is to come, and to pick the brains of those who have completed the adoption process. We have such a great community of people who are walking this road either through adoption or foster care. "Lord, I am so thankful that we are not alone in this. Thank you that you have given me local support, a community." I returned home to a sick child with over 101 fever. After giving her the care of TLC and medicine, I tucked her in a soft, cozy bed. I quietly prayed, " Father, thank you that I have medicine to give my child when she is sick. My heart aches for those babies who are burning with fever and have no means of relief, shelter, or loving arms to hold them. Please, please comfort them tonight." Tonight at Well Communities, we focused on several layers of adoption. We entered into moments of brokenness as we heard stories and watched videos of the realities of these children. It's too much! " Lord, what can I do, what can I do? Please show me how to be the hands and feet to the broken. Please stir the hearts of your earthly children to act." Some sweet friends of ours, Seth and Joy Primm are in the process of adopting a baby girl from Ethiopia. They have such great hearts and are completely talented! They have created a album to help with their adoption process, as well as advocate for the orphan. It is a MUST HAVE!!!! As they sang, there was not a dry eye in the house. The words of the song "Come Home Beautiful" spoke to my heart and will certainly speak to yours. Click on "this beautiful life" (under my blog list) to order one today! Lastly, we celebrate! We celebrated with the dedication of Sosi Elle Rusch. Sosi has been home from Ethiopia for 9 months now. A girl who was once untrusting and who never smiled, is now full of life and personality. We rejoice that she is no longer an orphan, but is part of a loving family who adores her more than you'll know. What a beautiful story! It sounds all too familiar.....without our Heavenly Father, we are all fatherless. Thankfully through Jesus, we have become adopted sons and daughters of the King. "Heavenly Father, my heart is forever grateful that You chose to extend Your love to more than just "Your own Son. " Wow! Now, that is rescue and redemption!

# 6

2010-10-13T13:24:00.000-07:00

Yesterday marked our six month of "waiting". Time is slowly, but surely ticking away! I would really love for this process to be a bit shorter! Of course, I have a timeline of how things would look if it were up to me. However, I know I can't see the big picture. So I will rest in the Lord and try to be patient. I am reminded of Proverbs 16:9..."In his heart a man plans his course, but the Lord determines his steps."

"Show Some Love"

2010-10-02T21:23:00.000-07:00

We are so excited that our shirts are in! It's so easy- you can click the size and color on the left side to order. We will gladly deliver your "T'" or ship it, if necessary. In selling these shirts, we desire not only to raise funds to compensate the new travel laws in Ethiopia, but to tell several stories. The story of our son who represents 1 of over 160 million orphans, along with the beautiful story of adoptioin. When thinking through the design of our shirts, I was reminded of an image that I see daily. Last year, one daughter painted a picture of the Ethiopian flag for one my Christmas presents. I have proudly displayed it on my kitchen counter, along with the sweet faces of my girls. This serves as a reminder that soon the flag will be replaced with the face of our son, when he joins our family. What a great day that will be! Our shirts were also inspired from the very simple, yet powerful command "LOVE." The front of the shirts display this word written in the Amharic Ethiopian language. Jesus is our ultimate example of this love. He lived it out and gave it #1 and #2 ranking in commands. LOVE GOD AND LOVE PEOPLE. "Show Some Love" is scripted on the back as a reminder that we have the opportunity to demonstrate love to those both near and far. We can be the voice for those who cannot speak for themselves. Of course, the color choices of red, kelly, gold, and aqua symbolize the colors in the Ethiopian flag. A heritage that will always be on our hearts. We dream of a sea of Ethiopian colors at the airport, when he meets all of you for the first time. This thought brings tears to my eyes! We truly appreciate your support and covet your prayers. YOU MAKE THE DIFFERENCE!

The Unexpected Gift

2010-09-30T15:33:00.000-07:00

Scott and I feel extremely blessed to be surrounded with such amazing people here in NWA. We have a great network of friends, who love us and support us in so many ways. Furthermore, we are blessed with a community of friends who are like minded in raising our children. First, our desire is to raise them in a manner that will cultivate a love for God. Second, we want them to not only love others as much as themselves, but also view others in that manner. I have several other "Mommies" in my life that I feel privileged to glean wisdom from when needed (which is quite often). It is encouraging to know that they are praying for my children, as well as playing "another mother" role in their life. I wanted to take some time to share the heart behind one of these families, both parents and children. My oldest daughter, Kenzie, was invited to a birthday party for her friend Mary Katherine. (Everyone calls her MK) MK was turning 13 and wanted to have a pizza party with games, fun, and friends. This was not a typical birthday party, however. Most 13 year old girls would be concerned with ipods, cell phones, gift cards, clothes, and money. Not MK! In fact, she was thinking of someone else; she was thinking of Kenzie's little brother in Africa. You see, at the bottom of the fun, festive invitation it read: "NO GIFTS PLEASE. IN LIEU OF A GIFT, MARY KATHERINE WOULD LIKE TO BLESS MACKENZIE PAGE'S FAMILY, TO HELP BRING HER BABY BROTHER HOME FROM ETHIOPIA." Tears, right! How amazing is that! She not only sacrificed her desires for the good of someone else, but allowed her friends to be involved. What a beautiful gift from a beautiful girl! Our hearts are forever changed by such unselfish love. We can't wait to share this story with our son. He is already loved by so many!

Happy Birthday, Rosie!

2010-09-29T11:57:00.000-07:00

Our sweet little "Rosebud" is turning two today. It brings happy and sad tears to think how my baby has grown! What a blessing she has been to our family. My prayer for you, sweet girl, is that you would "love the Lord with all your heart and seek His face always!" I can't wait to see how God uses this little girl for His glory.

5 Months!

2010-09-13T14:04:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was the official marker of five months of waiting. Kenzie made all of us, bracelets in honor of "our little man." Each bracelet was woven with colors that represent the Ethiopian Flag. Until then....we are five hands praying, hoping, and ready to love!

Junk Posse!

2010-08-14T09:31:00.000-07:00

Throughout our adoption process, God has brought along people that have been a source of encouragement to our family. Tracy at "Junk Posse" is one of those sweet individuals. From the first moment we spoke, I was overwhelmed with her heart for the orphan. Furthermore, I can't say enough about her beautiful works of art; each piece is unique and personal in every way. This is a woman who is truly using her gifts for God's glory! Recently, I had Tracy design a necklace for me. One that I can wear daily, close to my heart, a reminder of our son in Africa. It has the Amharic word for "love" stamped with a sweet charm of Africa dangling in front. I had the word "agape" inscribed on the back as a reminder of God's gracious love. This is such a treasure!

Tracy has extended an extremely generous offer to our family. She will be donating 30% of her sales to our adoption! Amazing, right? We are humbled and honored that she chose us. So here's how it works. You can buy any piece from Tracy (except the already designated pieces that she has up for non-profits or another specific family) as long as you include "Page Adoption" or "Page Family" in the notes when ordering. Beautiful jewelry for a beautiful cause! Click on the "Junk Posse" picture on the side bar to head over to Tracy's store so you can check out the rest of her amazing work. Don't see anything you want? Consider doing a custom piece! A bracelet, a ring, a key chain, etc. Sky is the limit!! Tracy is so talented; you will not be disappointed.

Here are a few of my favorites to inspire you!

Tracy discovered that Ethiopia looked similar to an angel wing. Only a true artist would recognize that! So creative!

Love the simplicity of this piece!

Beautiful!

This one is precious. Everyone wants to show off their kiddos, right? Especially the Grandparents!

Purchase with a purpose; love it! Check out "Junk Posse." You will not be disappointed.

# 4

2010-08-12T21:25:00.000-07:00

"Those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles, they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not faint." Isaiah 40:31

Four months on the wait list are now down. It is hard to imagine that much time has passed, we are so excited to think about the thought of him being home with us. We are also anxious about the months ahead; however, we will find our strength in the Lord. We are so thankful for the community of people God has surrounded us with during this journey.

"The Mamas and the Daughters"

2010-08-05T23:13:00.000-07:00

This past weekend was extra special for the Page girls. My girls and I were able to spend some quality time with dear friends on an overnight get-a-way. Kenzie has been planning a trip to the "Family Farm" with friends since my parents purchased the property well over a year ago. Well, her dream finally came true. (Meme was able to join the fun and bring a special friend, as well. ) It all started with a scavenger hunt in Eureka Springs. (We didn't let the 90 degree weather stop us!) Dinner out and ice cream sundaes at the farm. Laughs, crafts, and more laughs. Night games and exploring. Pampering and stories. More food. Staying up late talking. Tye Dyeing. Picnic, swimming, and lots of fun in between. The Mommies had a sweet time of prayer for our girls, as they are starting another school year soon. This was so refreshing and a reminder that God wants to carry our burdens for us all! I am so blessed to have such amazing ladies in my life that love me and my daughters. May these girls live out Romans 12 :9-18..... that they will grow up loving the Lord with all their heart and serving Him always! May they love each other and others more than themselves. Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer. Share with those in need and make every effort to live in peace. May God get the glory.

"Art for Africa" and "Bows for Brother"

2010-07-25T21:19:00.000-07:00

Do you ever have those moments in life where your children amaze you? We are all proud of our kids, and we think they are the best at what ever they are doing...school, sports, or the arts...but this time my girls have gotten perspective. They have learned a lesson, that I wasn't even thinking about when I was the between the ages of 9 and 12...their perspective of giving and sharing has gone to a whole new level.This past spring our oldest daughter MacKenzie along with her friend Sophie took art lessons. Well, one Friday night our family was having our traditional cook-out and MacKenzie announced she wanted to give art lessons to younger children in the neighborhood to raise awareness and money to help bring her brother home from Africa. Floored at the vision and heart of my 12 year old, we began talking about what it could look like and when we could have the art lessons. This past week MacKenzie and Sophie began the art lessons. It has been amazing to see the community and awareness that has been built around the life of our little guy.

Once MacKenzie birthed the thought of her art lessons, Mary Ellen decided she wanted to do something, as well. She has recently learned how to make hair bows and thought that making and selling bows would be a great way to contribute. Well, needless to say every little girl in our neighborhood is wearing a "Bow for Brother." Thanks to facebook...she has gotten some "big orders." More importantly than the money, is the fact that these two sisters are getting the opportunity to tell the story of their brother, who lives in Africa and how we are doing our best to bring him home.

It is amazing how this little guy, in one of the poorest countries in the world, is impacting our life and the people around us.

Scott

3 Months Down!

2010-07-16T17:00:00.000-07:00

We are counting the months until our son comes home. Three months down on the "waitlist." It feels so good to be waiting with a purpose. Tonight Scott and I watched a video of one of the government orphanages in Ethiopia. Wow, words cannot express the emotions that ran through me. My heart ached for those children. Every face represents a story, a situation, a heartache. Suddenly, I was reminded that our son could be in that orphanage right now. Our hearts are drawn to prayer for those who care for him each day. It also reminds us of the responsibility we have to love and pray for our children under our roof now. We long for the day our family will be united. We pray for God's grace to help us persevere, until our feet hit the soils of Africa and meet our son.

Happy Anniversary #16

2010-07-09T07:33:00.000-07:00

To my sweet hubby,

Thank you for loving me wholeheartedly and completely unconditionally! I can't wait to see what happens the next 16 years. May God be glorified! I love you more than you know.

Our Newest Addition (It's not what you think)

2010-07-08T20:16:00.000-07:00

Before you think we are totally crazy, please let me explain........I'll be the first to say that I did not want a puppy. Been there, done that, etc. The girls have been begging and pleading for a puppy for about 2 1/2 years now. Of course, we have been putting them off with the whole "Do you think you are really ready to care for a dog because it's going to be all your responsibility" talk. (BTW the girls have been caring for a neighbors cat while they are out of town. They go down at least 4 times a day to feed, change the water, clean up, play with, check on, and say good night to that cat. I guess we can't use the responsibility talk any longer.) And "We need to wait until Rosie is at least 2 before we even think about it" excuse. ( This excuse will expire in September) Furthermore, Kenzie has already reserved a special name for the dog she thinks she will "never have." You get the picture.

So, Scott and I have been secretly processing the thought of a dog. We knew we probably wanted to do it before next summer, when we hope to have our "little man" home. We began lightly looking- I mean lightly! We loved the thought of going to the shelter; however, not knowing a dog's background made us nervous with a toddler. I happened to google "puppies in nwa" and one particularly caught my eye. A lady had found this puppy abandoned on the dirt road of her rental home. After a few days, she realized that she would give one attempt of listing her on Craig's List before reluctantly taking her to the shelter. The rest is history.... Let me be the first to introduce you to sweet, Hazel. Oh boy, here we go.

American Dream?

2010-07-01T20:11:00.000-07:00

"Radical" by David Platt is a "MUST READ!" It's inspiring and convicting, empowering and challenging. He questions the American Dream....."Why do we feel the need to achieve it? How is it biblical? Can you walk away from it?" I feel that I hold "things" loosely. (Probably because the "material things" that I have are worth little of value.) I love to give and help others in whatever way I can. However, I have been convicted deeply about my motives, my desires, and my fears. It all revolves around "my." For years, I have been so concerned with what makes me feel safe or comfortable. Ouch, not pretty! Today, I spent sometime in serious confession that I haven't been more of a risk taker for my King. I am so thankful for forgiveness and that His mercies are new each day. He is so worth the risk! "Keep your lives free from the love of money and be content with what you have, because God has said, "Never will I leave you or forsake you. '" So we say with confidence, "The Lord is my helper, I will not be afraid. What can man do to me?"
Hebrews 13: 5-6

TWO MONTHS DOWN

2010-06-13T15:39:00.000-07:00

Wow, I can't believe it's been a month since I have posted. The end of the school year was quite "full" with all of the programs, performances, activities, etc. I am so glad it is finally summer and to have all my little peeps around. Our hope is to have our little man home by next summer. What a great summer that will be! It has been two months since we have been on the waitlist. Not much has changed. We are updating our child profile sheet per Gladney's request. (This sheet helps in placement of each child. It causes families to be more specific regarding circumstances that we would be willing to consider.) Other than that, we are just waiting. My heart has been specifically heavy this month for our son's birth mother. God knows her situation and the depth of her pain. I can't even imagine what she is going through. My heart hurts for her. I pray that she will come to know our King through this process. I pray that she will know Him as Healer, Redeemer, and Friend and that she will find peace in Him alone. May God be glorified!

One Month and Counting!

2010-05-19T13:37:00.000-07:00

I can't believe we have officially been "waiting" for over 1 month now. Eventhough it's only been a short time, it I actually feels good to be beyond the paperchase and waiting with a purpose. With Scott being in Haiti this week, his heart is breaking and longing for our son. He has met many who have lost so much. He has seen the faces that have no family. He was inspired by a man who was an orphan himself and has returned to Haiti with a purpose in mind-THE ORPHAN. What a beautiful purpose! We press on.. we wait...we pray..and we dream.

Happy Birthday, Scott!

2010-05-12T12:32:00.000-07:00

Happy 39th birthday to my sweet hubby! Scott, you continue to amaze me with your passion to live your life for the Lord. I have never seen someone who genuinely cares about so many people. You make everyone feel like a million bucks! I love you that you dream big and live large. I love that you bring the fun to our family; without you life would be so boring! Words cannot express the amazing Daddy you are. The girls (and brother-to-be ) are so lucky to have you. Thank you for sharing your life with us. Mostly, thank you for loving me. I love you, prec. Happy B-Day!

The Summit

2010-05-02T12:15:00.000-07:00

This past week I had the privelege of attending Orphan Summit VI. Corrie Rusch, Steph Maass, Jen Arkins, Joy Primm and myself traveled to Minneapolis, Minnesota for a weekend that will always be remembered! I am so thankful to have had these ladies to process all that I heard. I have never laughed, cried, and talked so much in my life. I loved every minute of it! I went into this conference not really knowing what to expect. I left feeling so many emotions. I was truly saddened with the "yuck" that is going on in the world near and far. I was overwhelmed with the magnitude of the need. My heart was wrecked after hearing story after story of sorrow and celebration. I was humbled that God has blessed me with so much that I don't deserve. There were things that I heard that will change my view of life, the way I parent, and especially my heart attitude. However, I was impacted to the core by these three statements given by people who understand trials...... "Even though you take an orphan and give them a home, food, and a family- the "orphan spirit" will still remain. That spirit can be healed by God alone!" (Quoted by Stephanie Fast a Korean orphan that survived the streets for 9 years before she was adopted. ) "Why do we feel like we need to live the perfect life now? We have it coming in ETERNITY. For now, we are meant for war! Having FAITH is not the ultimate factor in whether you suffer or prosper- God is the ultimate factor." (Quoted by John Piper) "You give and take away but blessed be your Name." (Quoted and sung genuinely by Steven Curtis Chapman) Amazing people with extraordinary faith!

Silver Candlesticks

2010-04-23T11:11:00.000-07:00

Scott and I recently received a beautiful letter accompanied by an amazing gift. We were humbled and deeply moved by such generosity. I will leave out names in respect to those involved, but I couldn't wait to share this story with all of you................
"Dear Scott and Mollie....... I have been journaling through the scriptures provided by the church. As I turn my eyes and heart toward the purpose of Christ's birth and His redemption of me, I am reminded of a great quote in the movie Les Miserables. It was when Monseigneur Bienven had been beaten by the criminal Jean Valjean, who robbed him and was later returned by the police to confirm the robbery. Instead of condemning the man, the Bishop added the silver candlesticks, which were the best of the best, to Valjean's bag of stolen silver. Then the Bishop drew Valjean close to him and whispered: "Forget not, never forget that you have promised me to use this silver to become an honest man....Jean Valjean, my brother: you belong no longer to evil, but to good. It is your soul that I am buying for you. I withdraw it from dark thoughts and from the spirit of perdition, and I give it to God!" I have often thought of this statement in light of God's redemption of my soul and how He threw in the best heaven had to offer, the Best of the Best, to claim me as his own. I take it quite personally. I have also seen God use people and their various generous ways to contribute to my welfare, such as the Bishop did to Valjean. You see, there was a process begun early in my life that took me from a poor housing project to eventually a life that would be better than I would have ever hoped for, and certainly better than I would ever deserve. The truth is many children in that housing project have gone on to live a life of despair and likely poverty. Many have gone to jails. Many have never known the grace of God and the redemption of their souls. But, for some reason, I was given hope, even when I didn't know that I needed hope. I was given help, even when I didn't know I would require it. I was given opportunity, even before I would realize that I would be desperate without it. I was given "redemption" from a life of limited choices, and limited hope, and limited future. There has been several people over my lifetime who have thrown "silver candlesticks" in the bag for me, and I understand the blessing I have received because of their help. I believe that in all Christians (whose heart is right with Christ) is a desire to express this kind of love and give this kind of opportunity to someone who it will help. Many would do this if they had the "silver candlesticks" to throw in the bag to save someone from a life of despair. But, they simply do not have the financial ability and cannot. But, for those who have the ability? Well, like scripture says, "For those who have been given much, much is required." I take this challenge to scripture very personal, for I have been given much, and I want to give as I have been given to. I feel my Savior's great delight when I do so. But do I have the ability? That was my question to God and myself this morning. As I thought this through and asked myself,"Do my wife and I have any "silver candlesticks" to give for the 'redemption' of this child in Africa, from a life of desperation he will surely face? After all, our income is now greatly reduced? How can we do it?" Indeed I do have the "silver candlesticks" to throw into the bag. I have a great motorcycle that if sold for it's best value could contribute to this adoption. What a great investment I believe it would be for us to make and what a joy to make it! Therefore, if you are willing to accept this gift, it will be with great joy that this is what we will do. Let us throw our "silver" in this bag in the form of what the motorcycle can be sold for. I am ready to proceed with this as soon as possible. Thank you for letting us be part of your journey." Unbelievable, right? Scott and I were completely overwhelmed; words cannot even express our gratitude! Well, the story continues. This past Friday I listed the motorcycle on Craig's List. Saturday, I received a call from a gentleman who said he had been looking for just this bike. Sunday, he drove to our house, with cash in hand, and purchased the motorcycle. (We were even able to share our story with him. ) I am reminded everyday of God's love. How HE moves in HIS children to act on HIS behalf. How HE will provide every penny we need throughout this process. And most importantly, how HE is walking closely with us every step of the way!

WAITLIST!

2010-04-13T19:54:00.000-07:00

I just got word that as of 4/12/10, we are officially on the waitlist! So exciting! The average wait time for a referral for a 0-12 month old is about 9 months. I anticipate that we will get quite weary of waiting, but today I celebrate this milestone! With the paperchase behind, I can dream about the future ahead. So happy that we are getting a little closer to "our little man. "

We Have Prints!

2010-04-05T18:26:00.000-07:00

Yes! It finally worked: we have prints! Thank you to my old friend, Kelly, who carefully and meticulously rolled over 160 fingerprints for me. There is an art to this- seriously! We received Scott's FBI clearance today. (Scott's has been delayed due to a "typo") As I traveled to Post Net, I was elated knowing this was the last of my checklist for Kate. Well, I guess the true waiting is about to begin! I have never been so excited to just "WAIT."

Bitter Sweet!

2010-03-22T13:22:00.000-07:00

Well, the rollercoaster begins. On Saturday, we received our CIS Approval Letter! HOORAY!!!!! We were so excited! Typically this is the last piece of information you receive during the paperchase. However, today I received word from FBI that my second set of fingerprints were illegible. (I found out last week that first set didn't clear) Apparently , I have no fingerprints! So we are working on " Plan C." I know God's timing is perfect and this is all apart of the process. So I will wait patiently as I saturate my hands with Corn Huskers Lotion. Maybe the third time will be a charm!

Let's Celebrate!!!!!

2010-03-04T12:18:00.000-08:00

Yesterday was a big day of celebrating for two wonderful reasons. First, our oldest daughter MacKenzie turned TWELVE! UNBELIEVABLE!!! We started the morning with a "Page Family Tradition" : Breakfast in bed (served on the"Red Plate"). We continued the day with presents, dinner out, and a family party. As I watched my daughter throughout the day, I was overwhelmed with tender memories from the last twelve years. Her birth, her first day at school, learning to ride a bike, starting soccer, etc. It is so hard to believe that she is a truly a "Tweenager." One thing I know for sure is that she is growing into a beautiful young lady inside and out! Thank you, my sweet Kenzie, for allowing us to practice our first round of parenting on you! You are an amazing person and we are so blessed to have you as our daughter!!!! The second reason for celebrating: WE ARE OFFICIALLY GLADNEY APPROVED!!!!! What great, great news on such a special day!

Dancing with Cinderella

2010-02-23T11:56:00.000-08:00

This past weekend was extra special at the Page House. Mary Ellen's school hosted their first "Daddy Daughter Dance." The excitement started a little over a week ago as Meme (nickname) and I began to plan her attire. She had in mind the look she was going for and it all revolved around a pair of sparkly shoes. We headed to Target with a mission in mind: french tip polish, shower gel (she wanted to smell extra clean), and a gold headband to match. This was all very specific to her look , of course. As the day progressed, she just couldn't stand it: she had to try on the complete outfit! My little girl modeled her dress and giggled with anticipation. While twirling she asked, "Do you think Daddy will like my dress and shoes?'' I assured her that her Daddy would love anything that she loved! She secretly laid out everything in her closet days before the dance. It was so cute to see her excitement grow with each day.

The big day finally arrived. Fingers and toes were filed and polished; hair was clean and straightened. She was ready to party! The babysitter had arrived for Rosie, Kenzie was out with friends, and Meme and I were waiting for Scott to return home. The doorbell rang. Meme quickly answered the door. She was greeted by her Daddy with a warm smile and a beautiful bouquet of flowers. She was on cloud nine! The three of us headed out the door to the dance. ( I was lucky they needed volunteers) As we pulled up to the school, I noticed the red carpet that was rolled out for the occasion. The decorations consisted of gold streamers, white lights, multi-colored metallic balloons, hanging stars, white table clothes, and all sorts of glittered decor. The refreshment table held a huge variety of cookies with the "famous rainbow sherbet punch." EVERY LITTLE GIRL'S DREAM! After pictures and cookies, the two of them headed out to the dance floor to join the others. There were lots of giggles, twirls, and swaying. By the end of the night, they had worked up a sweat and were tearing up the dance floor! Scott's jacket was off and Meme's shoes were nowhere to be found. What an amazing night! Precious, precious memories!

Fingerprinting Day

2010-02-22T09:16:00.000-08:00

My week is off to a great start! I had a bagel and coffee with my man before heading down to Ft. Smith for fingerprinting. We made "Page Record Time" and were first in line at the CIS Office. We would have been in and out in no time at all, but my fingerprinting took longer than normal. I asked the Clerk why we were having problems and her response was: "Your husbands prints were clear and defined; your fingers, on the other hand, are very worn and cracked." When I stepped back into the waiting room, Scott greeted me with a sarcastic: "Man, what's the hold up?" I was pleased to tell him that there was difficulty retrieving my prints because I have LITERALLY worked my fingers to the bone. Now, his prints on the other hand.....

Funny Story

2010-02-19T11:53:00.000-08:00

Funny story....... I was eating lunch on Wednesday, No. let me rephrase this... I was texting, loading the dishwasher, putting away groceries, feeding Rosie, and wiping up a spill, while scarfing down a quick bite of chicken, when the unthinkable happened. I failed to notice, in the midst of multitasking, the small bone in my rotisserie chicken. One bite, a quick chew-no time to enjoy, and swallow. Ouch, I knew immediately that I had swallowed a chicken bone! As the day progressed, I tried not to panic. After all, I was breathing and talking. Someone told me to eat something dense, like bread, to dislodge the bone. One loaf of bread and liters of water later, it was still there. I must say that I found the trick! DIET COKE! With each sip, I could feel the bone begin to move very slowly through my esophagus and down my body. VERY WEIRD FEELING! Finally after many, many carbonated beverages, the bone pushed through last night! YIPEE! The moral of this story.... Chew your food completely and slowly. If possible, sit down while eating. Lastly, for all you Diet Coke addicts here's one good reason not to stop!

Why Ethiopia?

2010-02-10T10:42:00.000-08:00

Over the last few weeks, Scott and I have had the privilege of sharing about our decision to adopt. We have seen quite a variety of responses. All of the conversations center around "Why Ethiopia?"

Let me first start by saying that I think that there is no place better than another. I feel that every family that pursues adoption feels drawn toward an area or even a situation. For example, I have several friends that are either in the process of adoption or have already adopted and each have a unique calling. One friend feels very strongly about pursuing adoption through the Foster Care System. Their family's desire is to leave a healthy, loving impression on as many children as possible. We know other families that have heart strings toward other countries such as: Guatemala, India, China, and the Ukraine; they have engaged adoption internationally, as well. Still other families feel that domestic adoption is their calling. After all, there is a large number of children that need homes here in the USA.

For the Page family, we were drawn to Africa immediately. In fact, we tried really hard to think outside of Africa, but just couldn't! I told Scott years ago that if he wanted to move there to work in an orphanage or dig wells for those who needed water- I WAS IN! I think this is partially because of my gift mix. (You see I score really high on the "Helps" section of the Gifting Test.) I think the other reason I have a tender spot for this area is for this time in our lives. The Lord has been preparing my heart and paving the way to our son.

Over the years we have been trying to teach our family the importance of looking outside of ourselves. (This is a hard concept for all of us.) We want them to understand there are people outside of the United States that have value and importance. For Scott, this is one reason he loved the idea of international adoption. Through the adoption of our son, we will have a forever connection to this country. In the future we want to travel there for extended periods of time and serve in an orphanage, help in a school, provide humanitarian aid, etc. Our true desire for the Page Family, for generations to come, is to have an active role in sharing love, peace, and the one TRUE HOPE to a place that's hurting.

The raw numbers really got to us! There is roughly over 4.6 million orphans alone in Ethiopia. The number is climbing due to poverty and the Aids epidemic. One out of ten children will die before their 1st birthday. Many are dying from malnutrition and dehydration. The more we read about the situation the more heartbroken we became. This in itself was really hard to get over!

We have several friends that either have or are in the process of adopting from Ethiopia. It is so comforting to know we are not alone. I love the idea of living in community with families that share a similar story. I think this will be so important for our son, as well. Our dear friends Mike and Corrie just brought home their sweet Sosi a few weeks ago. What an amazing celebration! Our family had been anticipating this day! Rosie, our youngest, had been walking around for weeks carrying her picture. "Loving and kissing Sosi." That evening at the airport was so special; Rosie immediately recognized and reached for her friend we had been praying for and talking about. I anticipate the day we will be on the plane bringing our baby boy home! What a great day that will be!

One Step Closer

2010-02-04T12:34:00.000-08:00

Yesterday was such an exciting day. We had our homestudy! Everyone and everything was spic and span! Andrea rolled in town around noon and had a light lunch with us. To be honest, I was a little nervous about the intensity of the day. I knew there would be a lot of processing situations, scenarios, and philosophies. My nerves were immediately calmed as we began talking. With each question, we were reaffirmed with our decision to adopt. There was something about getting "our story" on paper and even talking about the potential hard situations we could face. No topic was too overwhelming. In a lot of ways it was therapeutic. Throughout the day, we were filled with peace and utter excitement as we talked about our son and his future. The girls were more than willing to sit down for an interview. There were only smiles from ear to ear as they talked about their brother- to- be. However, there was a little disappointment to learn that there is 15-18 months of waiting from the homestudy. Even so, the Lord is in control. Thank you to my troops that rallied to pray for the Page family. We love you all and appreciate your support. We are one step closer to our "little man!"

My Cup Overflows

2010-01-31T20:24:00.000-08:00

Today I am filled with such joy! As I look at my family, I am reminded of how unique and wonderful each of them are. I truly admire the way my hubby lives his life. In the words of Scott Page, "He has a BIG TIME wherever he goes!" I love his passion and enthusiasm; it is so contagious! My Kenzie is so diligent and responsible. She loves a tidy room - a girl after my own heart! She could run our household with no problem! Sweet Meme, she has such a tender spirit. At times I am amazed at her depth of compassion. She overflows with thoughts and emotions. Our baby girl, Rosie reminds us all of how fleeting life is. We see how quickly she is growing and changing. I want to cherish each hug and kiss; relish in each stage of life. I am so thankful for this beautiful gift of family. As I go to bed tonight, I will pray for the families in Haiti that have been separated and devastated. Please join me.

The Road to Ethiopia

2010-01-30T15:06:00.000-08:00

I'm not sure where to begin, so I'll start at the beginning..... Over fifteen years ago, I married my college sweetheart. We had big dreams, as most newlyweds starting out. However, our perspective on life quickly changed after a series of trials early in our marriage. We began to experience God in a deeper more intimate way. This resulted in a heart change, as well as a career change. Over the years we have been blessed with three beautiful girls. They range in age from 12 years to 16 months (and yes this was planned). They are such a joy to us! We live a full life ministering in a local church, in addition to serving in our community.

In the last few years, God has been moving in our hearts in many ways. We started asking questions like: "Do our lives truly bring glory to God? Do I love others as much as I love myself? How much of the time do I put God in a box? How can I love God more?" We began to realize that our family wasn't living as biblically as we thought we were. We had changes that needed to made! As we read scriptures and prayed, we were prompted more and more to act. We needed to love people without expecting anything in return, restructure our schedule so we could serve more, and change our spending so we could give more. This was only the first steps to a change in lifestyle.

Last Fall it all changed! I began feeling a strong push to pursue adoption. Adoption has always been on my heart and mind. Even after the birth of Rosie, I felt like our family was incomplete- there was someone missing! I felt as if the Lord had placed someone in my heart to love, pray for, and pursue. I knew there was someone out there who needed us and we needed them. Scott and I began to discuss what adoption would look like for the Page Family. The more we discussed, the more excited we became. The more we prayed, the more confirmation we received. With Scott being an only child along with having three girls of our own, the "Page" name would end with him. We were thrilled at the opportunity of having a son to carry on the "Page" name. As with all our children, we are so excited about the physical and spiritual heritage that they individually will be leaving. Our hope and desire through adoption is to bring our son home, while always having Ethiopia in our heart and minds. We would count it a privilege to love and serve the country of Ethiopia throughout the years. After all, God has blessed us so that we can be a blessing to others.